2017

Every couple of months, I take time to reflect on what I’ve learned, how I’m evolving and what I need to improve on. It’s the way I’ve always been but the last few months required a bit more reflection as the year began to close.

We’re now three days into the new year and like everyone else, I want to say that I’ll resolve to do this and that, but at this point, I want more for myself that just new resolutions. I don’t believe in them, in fact. Not just because goal setting on January 1 is cliché, but because resolutions never seem to come to fruition exactly the way I want them to. So, I’m choosing to take on new year intentions instead.

The year is already beginning with lots to do, much to take on and a whole lot to embrace. I have plenty to look forward to: getting connected at the church I recently transitioned to, leaving my 20s behind, going through with a scary but good decision, making career progress, expanding in an area that I feel called to, and more. When thinking about the transition I’m undergoing and will experience throughout the year in different ways, I also think about the quality of progress I want for myself in these areas and the amount of introspection I’ll need to maintain throughout.  

I feel the need to be intentional about my motives, behavior, thought process and actions while I work towards embracing everything new and challenging.  I can’t waste time away wondering what if or how so. So, instead of listing what I’ll do in certain time frames, I’m choosing to just be, just do, and just become. This approach differs from resolutions because everything I’ll do, choose to experience, and pursue will be backed by ongoing, intentional efforts and decisions, whereas resolutions tend to be “all or nothing” quantitative, overly-strict expectations. 

I want to be open, do all things I’m afraid to step into, and become familiar with the uncomfortable – even for just a bit. So that means I’ll have to JUMP out of (none of this cute, dainty “stepping” out stuff, gotta be a bit more aggressive) my comfortable bubble to serve and get planted within my new church community because it’s important for me to do so. At the same time, I’ll have to let go of the idea that my 30s are scary and believe that the best awaits in this new life chapter…because yes, turning 30 seems like such a grown-up pivotal time. I’ll also have to set a series of short reasonable milestones to finally reach a grand and scary goal of mine. As if that’s not enough, I’ll need to ensure I’m making the right career-growth moves and take advantage of available opportunities in a spiritual area I struggle to believe I’m competent in because of fear.

All of this won’t happen by setting “all or nothing” expectations because I’ve learned to redefine the measure of success – it’s about being the best version of myself in these areas through continous and intentional efforts, not so much having a definite number of items checked off my list by December 2017.

I don’t have it all figured out just yet but I know living intentionally can be life-changing and it’s a constant thing I think about. Ultimately, I want to be the best version of myself in order to have something to bring to the table so to speak, when it comes to family, old and new relationships, ministry, career and just in in general. So cheers to 2017 and all that it may bring! xx

Share your intentions or resolutions below or over on social media, I’d love to hear them!

 

Jessica Martinez